Well, I’ve officially been a stay-at-home Mom for almost two full weeks now. It’s been fun. And it’s been stressful too. More fun than stress though!
It’s nice being able to go out for walks with Eli, and go to the library and the park together whenever we want. And Elijah has been so much happier (at least during the day, he’s having some sleep issues right now which are unresolved) that I can tell he’s liking the all-mommy-all-the-time thing. The after-daycare-meltdowns are a thing of the past, and Elijah is happy the vast majority of the day!
I knew that staying home was going to be a lot of work, but I underestimated how much! The first few days Jon would come home and I was exhausted! By the end of the first week I was used to being on my feet and on the go all day, but my brain was still tired. Did you know you have to feed these little people (and yourself) three meals a day, plus snacks? I knew that, and doing it two days a week by myself before was pretty easy. But now it’s every day! It feels like I spend half the day either cooking or cleaning up a meal. Trying to make sure Elijah gets all his veggies and fruits and proteins throughout the day has had a positive effect on my eating habits though. Now I’m eating the same things as him mostly (I still won’t touch that tuna stuff, and don’t join Elijah in sucking down the tofu that he loves so much). And the best news is that I’m not eating any junk food or fat food. I can hear my arteries unclogging as we speak.
We’ll see how the adjustment to full-time mommyhood works out, but I think it’s going to be a really positive thing for both myself and Elijah for me to be at home. God has led Jon and I so clearly to this choice, and as I drove away from my office on my last day of work I turned on the Christian radio station, just like I always do, and it was in the middle of a song I had never heard before. I looked up the song afterwards to make sure I heard the words correctly, since it seemed to be written just for me at just that time. Here are the words that I heard:
And I just showed up for my own life
And I'm standing here and taking it in and it sure looks bright
Oh the glory of God is man fully alive
Oh the glory of God is man fully alive
This is from a song from Sara Groves, with the full lyrics here, and it perfectly captures my emotions as I’ve just begun a journey which I don’t know the end of or how the day-to-day practical details will resolve (the bills have a nasty habit of needing to get paid). I’m just trusting God, seeing His hand in our lives every day, and knowing that I did just show up for the life that He has in store for me. And it sure looks bright from where I’m sitting.
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