I get so emotional, baby . . .

Little known pregnancy fact . . . when you don’t want to eat pasta for dinner, and yet that is what your spouse is making, your hormones can turn you into a crying baby sitting on the chair in the corner of the kitchen. Don’t ask me why, it makes no sense. Yet this happened on Friday night to me and Jon. And in case you didn’t figure it out already – I was the spouse on the chair crying and Jon was the spouse cooking. :)

I don’t know why, I can’t remember how, but it started with a discussion about what to have for dinner and me saying, “I don’t want pasta” and ended with me crying on the chair blubbering that “Everything is all out of control, I don’t know what is happening to me! I just want my life to be in order and not feel crazy emotional all the time!” And Jon making dinner, wiping away my tears and telling me that this is the one time in my life when I can be crazy and he’ll understand completely. What a good husband.

It really is remarkable though how different I feel emotionally while I’m pregnant. I didn’t think I would be like that -- though how could you ever know what you’re going to be like really. I get upset more quickly now though and can’t recall crying as much in the last 5 years as I have the last 5 months! It’s usually over stupid stuff too, not big things -- which makes it harder for me to understand. I’m used to being in control of myself and not being all emotional like that. Now my emotions are so unpredictable that it’s hard to cope with sometimes.

All of this makes me sound like I’m walking around crying every day, which I’m not – it’s more like one emotional cry a week on average I would guess, really mostly in the last month or so. Hopefully the frequency doesn’t go up any – or my husband may get sick of me and start looking for a new home!